Where to even begin, I never in a million years would of thought you would become so important in my life. That first interaction was so frivolous, I didn’t think it would ever amount to something. You were persistent thought, kept that conversation going and I got hooked. I still remember when you told me, you realized when you became important in my life by the way and the time I would text you back.
I didn’t want to take you seriously,
I didn’t want to open up to anyone.
You slowly but surely broke down all my walls and made yourself at home. You are so fascinating to me, the way you think is beyond me.
I had never had such a deep conversation about God, life and even porn. Even when we didn’t have much to talk about, I never had a dull moment with you. You helped me love myself like no one had before. You helped me embrace my weirdness. You took me to a place I hadn’t been with any other guy. I’m glad it was with you, you never judged my fantasies, dreams and goals. I’m glad I got you into different things even if you were uncertain about them at first.
I couldn’t believe I was so lucky to be with someone who was so willing to try new things. I could never get tired or bored of you. I love to hear you sing, I still remeber when you dedicated “Olive you” to me and told me I had to learn the girl part so we could sing it together and you would play it on your ukulele. I can’t listen to “I need your love” without getting a bit emotional. You said you wanted to make cute videos like that. My heart skips a beat every time I remember you telling me, you wanted to put my legs on your shoulders. You would melt my heart every time you would tell me, I would not be allowed to get out of bed after sexy time, that you wanted to hold me close and cuddle.
What can even be said about your calm and collected voice. You left me breathless so many nights, no regrets there Greg. You made me realize that time and distance meant nothing. I lost my self in you, I don’t regret it. What you made me feel is so worth it right now. It’s impossible to make my heart outweigh the good with the bad. My heart forgave every mistake you made before you even apologized. That apology you gave me still hunts me till this day, no one had apologized so sincerely to me before. I had never dealt with someone as stubborn as you. Honestly I love your stubbornness more than anything even if it made me lose my cool every now and then. I can go on and on about your qualities and I would never finish. I don’t hate you, I have to much love for you, there’s only room for love in my heart. No matter how hard I try to change my heart, I can’t deny what it feels. It is what it is, is just some kind of love I can’t explain it. You, our memories and your words plague me, from the moment I wake up to the moment I go to bed. I could never hate you, not even if I tried. You’re not a monster, you made some bad decisions but nothing in this life is set in stone. Like you always say, “I can’t tell you how to live your life”, I just want you to be happy, I value your happiness more than mine. I want what’s best for you, I told you many times that all you had to do was tell me and I would be out of your life for best or for worse
I dragged this for this long because you never told me to stop. I was always at your disposition and will continue to be until you no longer want me. I’ll be whatever you want me to be in your life. I love you and I care so much about you. It makes me sad to see a person like you, who is so amazing, so set on what he wants and the way he wants thing not be able to express himself. There’s a big difference between not having to explain yourself to anyone and having the decency of telling someone what it is that you feel for them. I’m finally understanding your detachment and even your silence.
All I can say is that you can avoid certain situations if you learn to speak your mind & heart.
I’m now at the point where I’ve accepted the reality of things.
After talking to my friends I will be taking some bad advice and I’ll try to forget about you with other people.
I will put you to rest and focus on other things. I will lie to myself every day until I learn to live with the pain and the memories of you. I’m setting you free Greg.Go out there, be free, find yourself. Throw yourself off a cliff and build your wings on the way down. I’m excited for your future, I know you’re going to go far, take every opportunity and don’t give up.
Who knows maybe one day in a few years from now our paths cross again, maybe then we can give things another try.
I hope he never cheats on you. You don’t deserve it, you might be a bit of a shit talker and you might have pissed me off with your passive aggressive shit but I still don’t think you deserve what Greg did to you.
I feel as sorry for you as I feel for myself. You may say you have him but you really don’t. He’s as free as he wants to be. At the end of the day no one wins because you have him as much as I do. I wanna see how long your happiness last just for the fuck of it. I hope you dont cheat on him again, and I hope he never cheats on you again, although if he does I’m pretty sure you’ll never find out. He was so good at having me on the side and giving me so much attention, I never doubted him. He’s very punctual and knows how to manage his time very well.
He also has really good memory, never got a conversation mixed up. Greg has a problem he’s a habitual liar,but he means well. He’s the type that does it to protect people but lies are lies none the less.Take this as a joke, a warning, a threat, take it how ever you want to take it,to be honest I don’t care.
In my 22 years on this earth I might still not know what it means to be a woman but I know what it means to be a decent human being. I knew it was the right thing to tell you that he was cheating on you, and I’m 90% sure he tried to play the both of us again. Up until the 12th of February, he told me he still wanted to work things out with me. He even told me what I needed to do to keep him around.
Pay attention to his avoidance, his silence speaks volumes. You’ve known him longer, I would assume you know why “he doesn’t have the balls to tell me”.Keep your eyes open,He found Me.He knew what he was looking for, and he did it using the same account where he professed his love for you. Trust is like a mirror, once is broken you can try and put it back together but you will always see those cracks.
He obviously wasn’t thinking about you or your feelings when he found me, when he would tell me he loved me, when he was giving me all the attention that you deserved.
What makes you think he can’t do it again, food for thoughts.
Greg isn’t a prize that can be won, there’s no reason to boast about “having” him,”un cojo cae más rápido por hablador que por cojo”. I’ve said it once,I’ve said it twice and I’ll say it a third time, if you have something to say to me, good or bad say it.
You know perfectly well how to find me, you want my number ask Greg or ask me. Believe me is not that hard to get the balls to be upfront with people, I did it. If you feel like you’re woman enough, if you feel like such a bad bitch do it, I dare you, make my day kiddo. This is the end of it, I want you to stop looking at my shit. Yes I know you look at my blog, I have a tracker on it, believe me there’s only one person besides me who would be as interested on the greggoorryy tag.
You have him already, he’s all yours why are you looking at my blog for?
Don’t let those insecurities play games with your mind. Why even question things if you’re so sure about what it is that you claim to “have”?
Please let me grieve the lost of my love one in peace. You asked me to leave you alone and not text you anymore when I told you about his cheating and that’s what I did, now I’m asking you to leave me alone.
Go be happy with him don’t worry about me, he certainly does not worry about me, you should do the same, follow his example.
One day kittyklub will become public and you can go ahead and have a good laugh; yes even my instagram will become public but until then, I’m asking you to leave me alone.
When pain begins to feel like pleasure